Why am I doing this?

My beautiful WWSendTheLoveTeamSlim ladies and I had our usual Tuesday night Skype session tonight. The topic we were discussing was what inspired us to start our weight loss journeys. 

Similar to most Tuesdays, I've been contemplating the Skype topic for the rest of the evening. Tonight I've been thinking of all kinds of reasons why I'm doing this. Here's what I've come up with:

1. I've been fat all my life and I'm sick of it. 

2. I'm tired of days and weeks and years going by and continually being disappointed in myself that I haven't changed. 

3. I hate shopping only in plus sizes. 

4. I want to walk into a room and feel all the men's stares shift to me. 

5. I want to run, bike, hike, swim, climb, dance, kickbox, etc. without feeling slow, out of breath or like I don't belong. 

6. I want to be a remodel for my daughters I someday hope to have. 

7. I want to wear a bikini. 

8. I want to live a long, healthy, happy life and not sabotage or cut my life short because I couldn't control my eating. 

9. I want to surprise myself with what I'm actually capable of achieving. 

10. I want to discover the person inside me who isn't affected by the armor, shame, excuse, or safety of being fat. 

Wow...I actually teared up as I was typing some of those (thinking about my future daughters...sheesh!)

I know it won't be easy. I know I will want to quit. I know I'll sometimes need to be reminded of why this journey is important and this list will be just what I need.